We have been together for 4 years 2 months now. Its just weird because i feel more and more attached to her instead of most of the other couples whose feelings will fade for their partner over such a long period of time being together. Me and Pancy have been through a lot together and we would try to solve problems that head into our way. We used to quarrel on a regular basis about anything and most of the problems are created by me (Mr paranoid) but now it has toned down a lot. I have been trying to change. To change into someone who can truly give Pancy a happy and good life. I was so focused on changing that i did not realize that i, myself had become nearly a totally different person....... I started to become super paranoid. Afraid of her talking to guys, letting her go out late with her friends, calling her when she does not reply her messages. I am suffocating her and i know it but what am i suppose to do? Its not that i do not trust her but i just keep picturing of her breaking up with me and going for another guy who is much more superior than me. What am i? I am someone who controls my girlfriend from doing lots of things, always wanting her to spend all her time with me and constantly afraid of her dumping me. I do not have the looks neither do i have the money so what motivates her to be in love with me? Is it because she knows that i would never fall for someone else or is it because i can give up the world for her? I am really puzzled and i really hope that there is someone who can guide me through this. I have my NS to complete, i have my ITE to complete and then i still have to complete polytechnic to get my diploma cert. I am really far far away.
